Found out that the childhood girl buddy kept me in the dark that alphamale2 AND futuredoctor had asked her if I were to attend the meet. They said she said yeah, she'd inform me but it was some other girl who managed to text and another totally non-friend who IMed details. I hoped she was just being forgetful, but if it wasn't so, I know this isn't the first time she consciously deprived me of information so that I would be excluded frm the group. And to think she's not - and has never been - with this crowd. I've always liked my hermetic habits, but I do make exceptions time and again, and she knows that. I mean, I've always gone out of my way to include her in my crowd's events even if I had to drag myself to go because she liked this cool guy that my ex always invites. Idk. I've also observed that she'd ask me out for shopping, etc, but when it comes to group dates where there'd be guys around, she'l refrain frm asking me along. I'm not even a threat to her, I don't think so. She's taller, extroverted. I'm not even pretty pretty and most times just one of the boys really, not *with those boys. So it's just fitting they'd find me first most times. Gosh. The worst part is I want to be angry but I can't. Bygones. It hurts tho.

The worst part is that I really wanted to meet Sportsbuddy3 but he didn't turn up coz she told him I'm not turning up. Darn. Time to resurrect my fbook and learn to reply to texts. I think the days of having a gd gal pal gatekeep my social calendar is over. Darn. I so like my privacy.
But I think perhaps she has tire of her role and is sabotaging our friendship in her own way. I'll miss her, of course. But at least there's futuredoctor asking me out for dinner, for now. But I'd just rather he's some girl I can be buddies with.


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