I think no one will ever want me

I resent easily accessible birth control for making casual sex such a 'thing', and making me lose faith in my fiance.

I haven't had sex in 4 years because 'm so afraid of getting a girl pregnant.

i just transfered to a public school. i have no friends and i have no one i can relate too all i do is hangout with my boyfriend and it gets boring.
my skin is natuarlly white but i put tanner all over my body. i wear heavy makeup and everything. people tell me i look pretty without it ans with it but i dont want to hear that but then again i dont know what to believe, guys always tell me im hot..but for some reason thats not enough for me to feel good about myself. i wish had atleast i had one close friend but i get nervous about what people think about me so i dont really talk. i feel like theres no hope. im trapped inside this bubble of insecureness and hoplessness.

I am so sorry I was that girl. Never ever again.

I wish someone knew and cared about everything that has happened. I used to cut, and I stopped. It took a long time for all the scars to fade, but they only faded because I rubbed lemon juice and honey on them. Now I miss the scars, and the days are feeling lonelier and darker.... I miss cutting. I can just feel that blade in my hand again.... But I just got to wearing short sleeves again and I don't want to lose that. I dont wanna be depressed again.... I thought I beat it, twice. Now I'm slipping back into it and I'm afraid that I'll lose control and cut my arms again. I wish someone knew everything I've been through. I wish they know just how much I'm hurting. When i used to cut, I'd walk out of the school bathroom after a cutting session, and is walk down the crowded hallway thinking, you don't know I just hurt myself in the bathroom. You don't know I just made myself BLEED!! PLEASE! I just want someone to say hi to me in the halls like I do. I walk down them, smiling and saying hi to people I dont know, in hopes they'll see how nice I could be, and how they should be my friend... I'm afraid. I'm afraid of cutting. But I miss it so much! I miss my scars, I wish I'd kept them so I had proof that I did cut. Im so scared, Im slipping back into depression. I'm also twelve years old. I'm pretty sure I'm a 25 year old stuck in a twelve year olds body. I don't think like my friends do. I never have. Ive always known I'm different. This SUCKS.

Tonight, the man I love asked if I was having an affair with his business partner. I was incredulous - I cannot believe how someone so close to me could believe rumors instead of having faith that I would tell him about it if it were reality. Yet I still love this man, even though I'm married to another. It's not something I looked to find, but now that I'm here, I wish I would've never fallen in love with him because I can't do anything about it. And now..for him to ask me such a thing - it hurts me. Please let me have the strength to not let the rumors affect me. I also hope that I can fall in love with my husband again instead.

This website may have saved my life. Please post more secrets guys, it helps me when I see I'm not alone.

So theres this guy who ive never actually met but talk to on facebook & over the phone/text & he is amazing! everything i want..& he wants me too...only problem is...he is my cousin!:(

Well I have started my new year off on the wrong foot. I don't want to tell my love one because I regret what I did to her. She had to go away on bussness trip and I was not to see her until the new year ( not being with her new years eve). So I went out with a few buddies of mine and rang in the new year. While out I run in to a friend of mine that I hadn't seen for a while started to talk and catch up on how things were. It was left at that. Until the bar closed Im standing outside with my pals when I get a text from the friend I had met inside saying that they needed a lift home so we split a cab back to her place she invited me in I said not thing of what was going to happen next . Well one thing led to another and well we had sex. I never would had thought I would do such a thing to my gf of 5 years. I really regret doing this and wish I an turn back the clock so none of this would have happend.

hey! It's not a big secret but i am so scared!
Look.. i met this guy on the internet he is not fake!! he lives in my country he is 2 years older then me and we became good friends..nearly best friends! (nope i haven't met him yet) please don't judge so he is my big brother and i'm his little sister and now he tells me that he has health problems and i might lose him im so scared :( i cry everyinight and haven't eaten for days

I feel the darkness always seeping into my soul, no matter how hard I try to keep it at bay. Every day, every hour, every bloody second, it gets worse. I was an angry, impulsive child until my mother put me into therapy... It didn't make me any less angry, or impulsive, but it did teach me control... Control over myself... and also control over others. I manipulate, I twist words and in turn I twist people. My own darkness multiplies and spreads, infecting people around me... But in the end i'm not a bad person... just a carrier for worse things. The infection has started to eat at me, and recently holding it at bay has been an impossible task. My impulses leak out, hurting people I care about, hurting my family and my friends. Murder is always on the front of my mind, suicide not far behind. I used to do drugs... Everything from marijuana to heroin... I've quit it all but pot (and tobacco, but i'm trying to quit that)... I feel like there's this war inside me, light vs dark, and at the heart of every war is pure chaos... This chaos... it hurts. I can't say this any clearer... I don't know how much longer I can control myself...