Fears

I am terrified this is going nowhere. I love him, I am committed to him, and I am living in fear that this is convenient now but as soon as I actually want to be married, or have a family, it will be too much. I am terrified that this means that I will never have those things we are supposed to want in life. I just don't understand how this has happened to my life. What is it about me that makes men not love me enough? I act unaffected, I pretend that there is plenty of time. But there isn't. I am going to have to erase him from my life the same way I did the one before him. And I am terrified that all I will end up with in the end is a career but no one to share a life with.

I think my wife is cheating in me...again. Now only this time we have a two month old baby. :(

I just want to have a normal family with someone I think loves me as much as I love them.

I left u and I am scared u will try to get me back, u treated me like shit and used me and I let u, now all I want is for u to leave me alone, I am over u but I am afriad u will conflict with any new relationship I am in.... I miss some parts of u... I miss the chemistry and u going down on me but you were an ass and I am to good for u and to amazing to take that... I should be everything to u and u treated me like nothing. I'll find more and u can't stop me but how will I deal with the fear of falling in love again and trusting the guy not to hurt me like u did? I hate you for that.

I have a 4.0 at one of the top 300 schools in the nation, an ACT score of 33, and an SAT score of 2100. I'm president of debate team, a french club officer, in the National Honors Society, and taking 5 AP classes.
This winter I'm applying to 6 of the most prestigious universities in the united states.

Every time my boyfriend cums inside of me, I'm terrified that I'm going to lose it all.

My parents have been fighting. My dad's been having an affair with someone he met online. They're going to a marriage counselor, but I don't think it will work. I think they're going to get divorced. I have no one to talk to...

I am breaking.
I wonder if one day I will just give up. Not get up out of bed. Stop eating. Just lay there and waste away, and feel shallow breaths wash over me like icy water.

It's a horrifying thought. But... also seductive.

Will I ever go to bed without wondering if I'll feel "normal" when I wake up?

I really think I'll never be able to have a relationship with anyone, I suck at just the basic level of communciation and I don't have chemistry with anybody. I'll be forever alone, I think I'm like this because I've got add, ever since I can remember I am always zoning out when I'm not interested in something. THis greatly affects me learning properly, like learning to talk to people properly and understanding what others like. I'll forever be lonely and nothing will change my world, nothing. What is the point of living if I will never be abled to find love? I have no idea....

I can't tell if I'm truly not attracted to anyone anymore or if I've just been hurt so many times, I don't want to like anyone.

I think it's a mix of both, but mostly the former.

I'm scared.

I am so afraid that I will never be in love. I deserve love but I am so incredibly scared I will never find it.