Fears

I'm afraid that in ten years, when I'm 22, I'll look at the scars on my arms and wonder if it was worth it

I've always been in love with the idea of being in love. But I've always been terrified by the fact that one day, my heart will be broken. What I'm afraid of is rejection... but also of missing out on something unbelievably amazing...

I'm so worried about annabel... Were only in 7th grade and she is in involved with this 8th grader, Chris. They were a cute couple at first, but then he started walking to her to class, and when they get there they kiss for about ten seconds. Annabels not that attractive, and I know Chris is an obnoxious player. Annabels got a great body, so I fear he is using her. But annabels suppperr sweet, and I could be all wrong about this, but I fear for her. Things like this happen alot at our school. Annabel, please don't fall for him too much.....

i dont know if i love my boyfriend or not, and i dont know if i ever did. i dont know how to tell if i do. i get so angry at him all the time for stupid things like putting pictures on facebook of him and another girl. i know deep down that they're just friends, but it drives me crazy! he's always with other girls because he can connect more to them and he gets along with them better. i understand that, but it makes me uncomfortable. i think this lack of trust is making me unsure of our relationship but i dont know how to fix it...i dont know how to trust him more. he hurts me so much. i think the real problem is that i care about him too much, so my mind twists everything he does so that it hurts me. i wish i didnt do that. i dont know how to fix this. someone help me regain trust in my boyfriend...ive tried everything

I have a boyfriend. And I am afraid to tell him I am bi, right? But just the other night I dreamed I was kissing a girl. I don't want to be a lesbian. I have nothing against them. I am just so afraid of how people will judge me.

Sometimes I just want to disappear
Leave and never come back
I do this to myself
I want to just be loved
To be wanted
But why must it be from males?
My father always loved me
My Big brother cared for me
Both of my grandfathers always had me as their favorite

For some reason though it's never been enough
I just crave to be touched to be in someone's arms
To feel safe
I am terrified to give myself fully to someone for that reason safety
I just wish things were clear
I want to stop seeking safety in flesh
but from the first time I felt safe I just keep wanting it again
I wish I could talk to someone about it but they couldn't understand
I had the perfect childhood, the perfect family
So why do I seek this?

If I'm not desired, If I'm not wanted
I feel like crying, like a wound is being opened up
Since He didn't want me
Since that first real love threw me away

I just hope someday it will be different
But I'm scared
I'm scared to be alone
To end up by myself

The only thing keeping me from killing myself right now is the fear that I'm so incompetent, I'd fuck it up and just end up plugged in and drooling on myself.

I'm 20 years old and a virgin. I absolutely hate it.

I am afraid of raw meat. I have panic attacks if I touch it (even with gloves). It is a hard fear to deal with! Plus the fact I am an extreme anemic. In the past 3 years I've gotten 6 blood transfusions (thats alot!!) so its in a way ironic

It started when I was 5, or atleast thats as early as I could remember. He would hit me, touch me, and for the first time when I was 8... he fucked me. How could such a sick disturbed person fuck and 8 year old. I am mentally and emotionally scarred by this, I will never be able to let go of the horrifying memories of my childhood. My father, the man who is supposed to protect me and love me betrayed me. It would happen almost every night, for 5 years I suffered through this torture. I had tried to tell my mom but she was so in love with this disgusting pervert that she would deny it. I am now 21, and I will never be able to live a normal life. Whenever I see children or men that even slightly resemble my father, nauseating memories are brought back and replayed in my head over and over again. I am afraid of most men, and I can not have a normal relationship with one. I have had sex since then, but I do not enjoy it and it makes me sick to my stomach. I don't have a relationship with my mother, and I feel so alone. My dad was never found guilty, no one ever believed me, I desperately need someone to reach out to. I'm slowly falling apart from the inside out.