Obsessions

I am still completely obsessed with you. I know that you loved me at one time, but I pushed you away because I am married. I think about you constantly, and although we have never met (since you live in England), we certainly know each other quite well. I fantasize about being with you. I am convinced that we will meet some day.....do not know how yet, though. My husband does not trust me because of you. I absolutely adore you. I know that I always will.

I cut myself.

To A,
You helped me make certian im bisexual and I think im in love with you. I dont plan on telling you, im hoping youll just realize it.

I am a perfectionist

It bugs me that this thing does not allow apostrophes.

I told her a little about my life, now she may be threatening to tell my secret to the whole school!

I think my cousin sexually abused me when we were kids, but I'll never know for sure because only 3 people would know the answer.

Person #1 is dead.
Person #2 would never tell the truth.
Person #3 would defend and protect Person #2 at all costs.

It sucks having to go the rest of your life, never knowing if you're actually still a virgin.

I cleaned my entire house because I cut myself last night and I felt guilty about it.
Everyone's wondering what's gotten into me.
It's crazy what guilt can do.

I want my boyfriend and I to dress up as Harley and the Joker for Comic-con, Halloween, and..virtually all the time. I wish we could dress up in lots of costumes for stuff--like those really geeky couples do, but he's not that kind of guy...I almost wish I could date someone who would...and for that matter, someone who likes the Joker to begin with...*sigh*

My ex girlfriend use to give me rim jobs, and I loved them. Im afraid to ask my new girl if she would ever do that.....