Regrets

Everyone has some baggage, but mine is big and life threatening. It is not fair for me to look for someone, a boyfriend, because if I find him, he'll be in danger too. It would be more ethical for me to choose to be alone, so when the time will come, I'll be the only one to face all, and to fight the final battle, so to call it. Nobody should be taken into this story, me either actually, I haven't done anything to go through this but being born into the wrong family, and supposedly, also being female.
But how can I choose to give up all my happiness for them, maybe one day everything will be over, I'll be alive, I'll be 50 and will find someone I will truly love, and will truly be able to be with him. But now, I have to sacrifice it to not involve someone else, but the only person who will pay is me, giving up a possible happiness, none of the evil people will ever. Unfortunately. I can't face a guy on a date and tell him, if we get together you may find yourself with someone trying to kill you, in the next few years, it's a big baggage I can't unload on someone else. But I can't even carry it any more. Wish they killed me when they tried, now I wouldn't be torturing myself with this.

I mistook sex for love.

But, you're the one I imagine at the other end of the aisle. I think about, I dream about it....

I married my husband because I had lost my job and my rent was going up and he had a free place to live and he was finacialy stable I was not. Anyway I am not in love with him I feel like I have to be the man in the relationship because he is diabled he is'nt able to do allot sexually or physically I am a very passionate person I love to be grabbed from behind I love to snuggle up next to my man and I love to make love I feel like my life is over I feel like I gave up my little short life to serve him I don't get any joy I am very deppresed and I cry all the time I can't leave because He is the sweetest nicest guy I would feel really guilty I feel like I have been deppressed since The day I got married I am just a maid and a caregiver

Last Friday I went to my best friend's ex-girlfriend party. I grab an ipod to play with it and then forget about it. Suddenly, it's owner was looking for it and it was in my pocket. I was afraid of telling her so, because I haven't ever saw her so i kept it and now it's in my house... Now i'm remorseful

I wish i never meet you cuz u abused my friendship we first meet becaused your father died and i lived in a single parent family my entire life so i was always there for you but today i cant help but say bad things in my head about thd greatest people in my life thank you for changing my judgement to a malicious person

I regret dating you. You were my best friend. And now we're broken up and we never talk. I miss watching movies all day with you and talking for HOURS about nothing. You were my other half, my mentor, my kitty. Remember how you named my stomach Tina? Remember how you made fun of me when I wore my retainer because I had a lisp? Remember how I watched your wrestling practice one day and after I left you texted me and said "you looked like an angel as soon as you walked in the door..just the way the light was shining on your hair....you're SO beautiful"? I remember all of that. Do you? I wish I had my best friend back. I know you care about me still...even last night you told me you loved me and didn't want to see me going down the wrong path. I'm sorry I broke up with you and broke your heart. You'll always have a place in my heart and I'll love you forever and ever babe. Cross my heart

I don't know where I am on the grid, or Bell Curve, or sliding scale, or however you choose to define sexuality, but I do know that I want to kiss you. I know you're willing, and you have no way of knowing I am. Tomorrow is when I get to see you for the last time in a very long time. I just hope I have the strength to ask.

I have never had any self control. I will die because of the way I have abused my body.

My husband's "friend" came over after I went to sleep. She saw my car in the driveway and didn't want to visit him because I was there. Should this not be the least wierd to me? It is, but I dare not mention it to him.