Regrets

When i was 14 i gave some boy a blow i was just trying but i didnt like it now i regret w all my heart i wish i could take it all back...Im 15.

I am worried my biggest mistake has ruined the best thing i have ever had. Fuck hindsight. I love you, I always will. BELIEVE ME?

I heard so much about him I wanted to meet him so badly so I finallyy did after I found him on a website and he messaged me we hung out and hanging out turned into sneaking out that same Sunday night to meet him in the park where he hugged me and kissed me and...even took my viriginity. He was so sweet to me it's hard to believe people say he's a jerk, maybe I'll find out In time... It was great to be in his arms and to kiss him I guess I wouldn't feel so much regret right now tho but the fact is he has a girlfriend.....

When we were just kids my brother talked me into kissing him. And I mean actual make-out kissing. I try to forget about it but whenever I think of it I feel disgusted with myself. My brother thinks I was too young to remember, and I'm going to let him keep thinking that. It never happened it never happened it never happened...

i never got to tell you that i loved you. i wish i could now but i just can't....i love you.

I can't believe I did what I did I wasn't thinking of the consequences but Noe I have learnt that there are always consequences, but with the help of God and Sam I am not trying to hurt myself all the time I'm not crying myself to sleep. Sam I love you, I would do anything for you. J- thankyou for being trustworthy no one else may trust you but I do and i'm trusting you with my life.

the one thing i regret most in my life is being intimate with a friend, i have now developed feelings for him and i know he doesn't feel the same way. he is dating another girl now and i cant help but feel sad, angry, and confused because i don't understand why i couldn't be her. i know this sounds crazy but when he is telling me that he likes me and wants to be with me it is kind of hard not to believe him since i like him so much. i dont want to tell him how i feel because i met him through friends that i have become very close with and i don't want them to know about any of this.i hate myself for liking him.

I used to like being human. I used to see life as a lot of fun. But that was before I experience a "break-up." A three year relationship, just gone, just like that. Now, I realize how many other people have gone through something like this. I've googled "Break up song" and "broken heart" and "I want to die," and believe me: this thing happens all the time!

So now, I don't like being human anymore. How come we all go through something like this? It is cruel, not fun, and it ruins everything I used to believe about life. Being human sucks.

I want it to stop.

when you acted interested in me, my friends and i made a big deal about it. you were the weird kid. and i told i my friends it was awkward. why would i judge so quickly? you're cute and nerdy, and i've burned bridges i wish i'd left intact.

I lost my soul mate.

I never believed in soul mates. I didn't even believe in 'falling in love'.

I'd had long term relationships, known a family, had long standing friends, but I'd never said the L word, never.

I got through my entire teens without ever swooning over a bloke or thinking 'oh my god, I'm so in love', despite being with and even living with one parner for three years.


I didn't want 'love' or to 'settle down'. I didn't want anything, but it came along anyway.

Still, we were together nearly two years, living and working together, before I ever said 'I love you', but I did.

We were one person, whole together. And I loved him to the bone.

We've been seperated almost two years. We still speak, on the phone, via email, through texts, but we can't met.

I've tried to move on, but I spend my life waiting for him to call up, for us to meet, for life to resume.

We're heroin addicts. I got clean and he didn't. I can't be near heroin and he can't be away from it.

Three of my friends have recently gotten engaged. Other friends are already married, have kids, careers, mortgages, take holidays.

I'm a fucking smackhead. I got clean to live, but my life since has been one long wait on the man, my man...my drug, my soul mate. And what scares me more is the phone call that says he's gone forever.

I never wanted to be in love.