Fantasies

Fuck this. I don't want to be alive anymore. I'd ask for someone to kill me, but I know that God is pissed at me for not believing in him, so he's gonna make me live forever. Forever in this miserable alone life. I just want to not wake up one morning.

I know we're young, and we haven't been dating for that long, but I knew from the moment we first became friends that I wanted to grow old with you. I can't wait until our "anniversary" (the one we chose). Hell, I can't wait until a week or two from now when I get to see you again. It's crazy but I know you're a permanent fixture in my life. (You said it yourself, too, so I guess it's not that crazy after all.) I love you, Kyle. :#

I wish for once i could be happy about how i look

I hope you want me to. I wish you would call and tell me you need to see me. But that's never going to happen.

Sometimes I don't see the point in being alive. It's an overwhelming thought and I'm afraid someday I'll take action.

You will never love me. I know that for a fact. Ur best friend told me who the girl that u like is. I've been in love with you since I first met you 3 years ago. No matter how much I denyed it to myself and everyone else, I have always loved you. I think. Since I've never actually had a boyfriend, I don't know. But I do know that I like you more than any guy I've ever had a crush on. And every night at 11:11 i wish you liked me back. And every night, I dream about you. I love you so much, but you will never know.

I have a recurring fantasy that involves an entire family. I used to be friends with the two youngest sons, but lately they've turned into two of the biggest assholes I've ever met. Their older sister has always been a spoiled little bitch who talks as if the world belongs to her. Their father is an elitist piece of shit and their mother sees nothing unusual and enables their actions. I'm doing a terrible job describing how horrible these people are, but be assured that there is nothing that isn't absolutely nauseating about being around any of them. My fantasy is to walk into their house in a mask and tie them all to chairs so they can't move. I would strangle the mother while they all watch and then hold the father's face in a tub of boiling water until he drowned. I would then slice the two brothers' testicles off and use a funnel to pour cement down the sister's twat and then sow it shut so that that the three children would wander into the world, poor and helpless as they deserve to be and with no way to reproduce so the family genes will die with them.

i love men, i'm engaged to a womam. but i love men...

I want a dick. I want to feel something hard beneath my pants. I want to thrust inside a woman and feel her warmth elope me. I want to thrust my hips and make her moan like she's never moaned before. I want to feel her mouth around my erect penis. I want to be able to squeeze my own balls... and lick my own cum...

These feelings may or may not go away. I'm almost 16 so it may be just hormones. I want to be able to be a woman... but I want to pleasure another with a penis.

My life is so miserable. I still have hope but There is no reason for it. I have never wanted to kill myself so I am faaaaarrrr from that hotline number but sometimes I just think, "what am I suposed to do? I have spent so many hours wishing for things to get better but, it only gets worse." What do I do?!?!?!