Fantasies

I'm 14 and occasionally I have dreams of me humping my 5 year old cousin.

This is going to be one of those where people our going to read and say "why on earth would she fantasy about that", but I often fantasy about how everyone would react if they knew evry single thing thats happen in my life so far or read my diary.

I have a fantasy of dating a transgender, MTF woman, even though I'm a "straight" girl.

I have fantasies about you all the time. I dream of sitting on your bed, talking all night with you and making out in the woods behind your old house.
I [i]hate[/i] that house.
Every time I see it, I look up to the window of your room and I wish to hell you were still in it.

I can't hold it in any longer. I want ALL OF MY FRIENDS to live 30 days in my 350# shoes. Know what it's like to be judged on your size, underestimated, and being told you're "intimidating." To live constantly working out (DAILY) at the gym just trying to make any dent in the ginormous size of your entire body. I want them to have the stairs, the looks, the sneers of utter disgust. I want them to incessantly desire someone that is simply not attracted to you because you're not as beautiful as Terry, Geri, Toni, or Leslie. I want them to want to be noticed, just once. I want them to want to be heard, not just heard but listened to. I fantasize being the "hot one" in the group; the group looking more like a horde or gruesome ogres, hobbits, and orks in comparison to my awesome beauty.

So... my fantasy guy. Dreaming him up should be a stress-reliever, right? Well, not all the time. I get so hung up on the possibility that if we dated in real life, he'd dump me because I'd be too clingy. Or that his ex would want him back. Or that I'm alienating his best friend by how close we are. How stupid is that? Yeah, I have issues. But I'm only a teenager, and I've never dated. I need to meet a guy I like who likes me back and who isn't gay for a change. I wish you a lot more luck than I'm having!

I dream that I'm married. And to whom? My fave celebrity. I feel so stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

I have a crush on my best friend's ex-boyfriend. I think about him all the time and wish I could have been the one to be with him. I imagine me and him walking through the park and doing all the romantic things she did with him.
If she found this, she would hate me..............
Because she's still in love with him.

I wish that I had ripped the x box contoler out of your hand and kissed you sooner.

I am fat. I know I am. I am fat and I am in love with my best friend. He has no idea. Yet I find myself daydreaming everyday that once I "lose the weight" he will fall in love with me.