Lies

I feel broken inside, my husband hurt me for so long and then my ex and I started talking and I was brave enough to tell him what was happening. He packed what he could and travelled three days to be with me. he gave me the courage to leave for good, he promised me he'd never leave me again and i fit perfect in his arms, he loved me all these years was thankful for a second chance. now two days ago he up and disapeared just like he did to me 6 years ago and i swore i'd never trust him again but i did because i've always been in love with him, i just hid it from the world. when things are finally starting to make sense, my complete sense of self and grip on reality has been smashed to pieces. thank god for my children, they give me a reason to get out of bed in the morning. if it wasn't for them i don't know what would happen to me. i feel like my body is so so heavy all the time and i feel so numb, like i'm really stoned but i'm not, i'm just incredibly sad. no more relationships with ex's, my husband was my ex we dated when we were younger, same as this ex that was suppsosed to be us getting back together. we made plans for our future and what we would do and the places he wants to take me to. the last words that he said to me were i love you baby. he promised to be back before my son's ninth birthday, that's in two days. he lied to me, said his money didn't come, but it did. said i'm gonna have a nap i'll msg you later, that was a lie, he left and now i'm dying inside, sure as shit i'll never completly recover from this.

Shes been lying to me. i read her emails and she gets high all the time. then she gets into fights with me. when we make up she says openly she loves me and i think,
fuck you. youre lying to my face, how am i supposed to say i love you back?
my confession? i really do love her. i just hate how she plays me.
i cant break away from my feelings though.

When you asked me if I thought you were fat, I said no.
I lied.

The only person I can lie to is my mom.

My friend asked me if I thought he was gay. I said "no".
I lied.

I cheat on you all the time. ALL THE TIME. You are too stupid to ever notice when I don't answer my phone, or come home from work hours late. You did it to yourself. You never want to haev sex with me. No porn. No lingerie. No toys. No kisses. I have to see o ther people to make it work.

i feel horrible about what ive done in the past yr. and i wish i could tell someone,but i cant

my mom is an alcoholic and one night she pushed me and i fell and got a big bruise. now years later i hurt myself and tell people that my mom did it

I've been so depressed lately its horrible. Back in the beginning of the school year everthing was amazing all the guys liked me, i was popular, and i was best friends with the most amazing guy who had a crush on me. Then everything just changed and now im a loser and noone likes me im fat and ugly and he wont even talk to me anymore and i have no idea why. I just feel like dying sometimes you know i want to go back to the bronx, my old hometown, where everything was fun and simple and there was barely any drama. i want my life back. I want to die and im only fourteen.:(

I lied saying that I didnt like him any more ,even though you were my best friend but truth be told I still love him...