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I think I'm going to hell if I don't stop watching Supernatural and reading gay fanfics.
When I was 5, I was raped by my 14 year old male cousin. I too am male. Well I'm 22 now and he went to jail served his time and what ever... Well there's things I never told anyone about that night. My younger brother was asleep in the same room. My cousin fingered my brother a**. He made me too. He was only 2. And that's what never went to court. To this day I think about it. Whether I should tell him what was done to him or not. Whether I take it to my grave or tell everyone what he did and made me do.
I'm gay and I like a guy. Nobody knows bout either. Had been keeping this locked up for 7 years now -_-
I love to see women put to sleep and being rendered unconscious. When I sleep with them I look forward to watching them sleep even more than the actual sex. During the sex I'm imagining them asleep. I especially like it when they accidentally fall asleep. I have an extensive collection of pictures of sleeping women. I'm so obsessed with it.
Sometimes I imagining going psycho just because I feel like that would be easier. To let go and have no filter. To do whatever I want and not have a care in the world. I just want that moment to feel free...
When I was younger, my mom asked me to tell her if I ever wanted to die. It's been about 5 years, and I still haven't told her.
I dated this guy for two months everybody told me hes not a good guy and to broke up with him. i didnt but then one day i went to my therapy and she told me that he was cheating on me so i broke up with him but then i found out it was all a lie and yesterday he called me and said he loved me and that he wants me back. idk what to do!! what if he is lying?? plus my parents wont let me date him cuz they think he is a bad guy
I just wish I can fall in love again. to feel to be loved and to love. that's all.
my parents are getting too old to clean up and maintain the house we have but I don't want to give this house up yet if ever til I get something better or marry.
we need more govt assistance, I am on a disability pension and i can only do small tasks and heavy ones with a lot of pain and suffering afterwards.
worst jobs on my back are vacuuming, mopping, making beds, hanging clothes on the line, lifting heavy things when i am at a bent over position...
making a bed and lifting a mattress just to put a bottom sheet on the bed is painful for me and stress loaded...
standing for too long, walking too much or sitting too long is no good for me either.
general house work is hard enough i can't vacuum or mop or do clothes on the line and my parents are getting too old to handle it too...
carrying heavy shopping and groceries near kills me.
i really need some helping hands from someone to help clean the mess downstairs my sister rose and father have made.
it brings tears to my eyes seeing the mess we live in when we used to have a clean house and I was always cleaning it yet still had no boyfriend.
we need servants to clean here, i think the govt should help more for people who have been sexually abused and suffer injury from assault. some of my injuries go back to childhood ... and from rape 14 years ago. i get server vomiting and migraines still out of the blue that are terribly debilitating.
my mother always has an excuse for not getting a clean away bin or skip to clean the place up and god knows she could get a few men to help her -i offered to pay to help her and call a paper ad for cleaning men, i refuse help from family now ...
i wish i could get a rotary group or something to help for free ... god knows we have raised enough money for charities in our life .... its not much but i raised over $10,000 for war veterans in one year during shitty economy and with no help from relatives at all.
we need new guttering, walls in bath and toilets are damaged, repainting, we have no stove or oven upstairs...
i need a man to help me with so many things its not funny... even my health ... and general money and living I could do with a generous loving husband to help me get through life and bills and make life better for me. god knows i have waited long enough ... i am 44 and never had a boyfriend ...
i just want one hug, one kiss, one night with a guy. I want to do many many wild things to feel alive.
I am currently studying abroad in Brazil and am originally from the United States. I am an openly gay guy, so when I got here I somehow managed to find a boyfriend quickly. The culture difference wasn't too helpful to our relationship and his extreme jealous side wasn't either, because he never trusted me to go out to clubs or whatever without him. Anyways we fought a lot and broke up and got back together numerous times, except now it is kind of different. The last time we got together was after I found him with some other guy in the bathroom doing God knows what. At this point our relationship was iffy and apparently we weren't "100%" together at that point because of previous stuff happening. At that point onwards he told me we would be 100% together. Anyways from that time on he seems kind of distant and I know he has been dealing with some work issues and family issues because he let me know but nothing specific. He doesn't really talk to me about these things and will just remain distant and idk it is bothering me. I'm suppose to be a person he tells these types of things to and he simply just ignores me or takes forever to get back to me with certain things. I've recently been thinking that maybe he is cheating on me which would kill me and break my heart, because I care for him a lot. One of his friends even tells me that he is usually a slut and blah blah blah. I'm not sure I believe that guy cuz he's in an open relationship with his guy and I think he just wants in my pants. But anyways since he has been so distant with me it has been hard on me because I'm in a new country with few friends. I'm used to seeing a friend or family member everyday. He doesn't make this possible. I started hanging out with a new friend who happens to be gay and some new things have developed with this new friend. Started off with talking and then massages and then blowjobs and now it has finally lead to full on sex. This guy is like practically my second boyfriend and he knows about me having a boyfriend already. And now to the current state of things: Boyfriend is still being distant and won't tell me what is up so I continue to do things with this other guy and now I realize that people I live with are gay and they might want to possibly start things which I'm actually thinking about now all because this damn guy is keeping me in the dark. To think my boyfriend was the one who said we have to talk about things, because ignoring the other doesn't help. Uhhh I feel bad and all and I just needed to let this secret out somewhere. I don't even care if this gets published or not... so yea thanks!
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